Pain

I don't know how to not suffer right now. It feels like everything has fallen apart for me. His love kept me alive and now everything will be dull and bitter and wrong. We love each other, that's not the problem... it never has been. The pain that I have experienced in the last month is enough to last a life time. I know it's just the beginning and the hole in my heart is still raw. I just hope it is able to mend itself over time.