Teenager

Oh... and today is my last day being a teenager. I wonder what my twenties will bring...

Blog

I think I 'm going to start a new blog today. Of course I'm going to keep this one. This one is my personal blog. I'm going to start one about my different passions... some of my favorite stuff. I'll post more info about it later. :)

Vacation

Going to Knott's Scary Farm for the weekend.
:D

Car

I am praying that they will find my car soon. If they don't find it in the next two weeks, I'm going to fix my mom's car. It's probably going to be around $300-$400 to fix and it's a pretty good car. At this point, I don't even care... a car is a car. Even if it was a $500 beater car I would be happy. You never really see all the good you have in your life until it's gone. This might sound crazy, but I am kind of happy that this happened. No, I'm not happy that I don't have a car... but I am happy that I have learned so much from the situation. I had to grow up a lot in the last few weeks and losing the car has made me a more responsible person. Life is about learning and growing. I know God has a plan for me and everything will be fine soon. I miss my family a lot. Sometimes, you think you're ready to grow up and move out and be independent... but I don't think I was. There's no going back now, I am an adult. I am okay with being independent, I just wish I had put more effort into the relationships with my family. I love them all very much and would do anything for them. I need a lot of prayers the next couple of weeks... maybe something good will happen.

Alex has been the best supporter imaginable and I adore him.

Sick

I'm so sick, and I'm so pissed. I had an asthma attack yesterday and had to go to urgent care. My asthma has never been that bad. I can't go to the Maroon 5 concert tomorrow and I'm so mad. I'm way too sick to be at a concert, and I had to miss pretty much this whole week of work... and I really can't afford that.

In a couple weeks though, I'm going to buy the part to fix my mom's car.
I'm praying that I get better soon though, I really hate being sick. >:(

October

I love October so much. Just thought I'd throw that out there.

Everything is going so much better lately. I've had strep throat the last few days, but other than that... life is great. Everything is set up at my new house, and I'm saving to fix my mom's Camry. I have been walking to work everyday... so I can't wait to have a car again.
My boyfriend is amazing, he spoils me. I am so happy to have such a wonderful man in my life. I'm very in love with him and I feel so lucky to have found him.

I need to do something new with my hair... it's boring lately. I think I'm going to grow it out again and color it a lighter brown.

Home

New place to call home.
I moved out and it's very nice. Almost all settled here in El Cajon. I love it, it's right next to my work. :)
I'm so glad something worked out for me. My boyfriend has helped me so much and I am honestly so grateful to have him in my life. Thanks Alex.
I miss my family though & I feel far from home. I've lived in Clairemont my whole life... El Cajon feels so different.
But I am happy.

Empty

Why do things like this have to happen to me? I'm a good person, I feel like I have to keep trying to convince myself that I am. I didn't deserve this, no one deserves this. I finally had something going right with me, my job... the job that I worked so hard to get. And I wait for somebody to help me, and there's nobody to do that. I feel hopeless. The money I earn goes to all of my bills, I just don't understand why life has to be so hard. I don't understand why there are bad people out there. I feel empty. One step forward and two steps back. It'll always be that way. I feel like there is no hope for me.

Weekend

I've had a great weekend so far, other than the fact that my car still hasn't been found. My boyfriend is the best person I've ever known and I am so grateful to have him in my life. Goodbye shitty September, hello wonderful October... my favorite month.

I'm worried I might lose my job if I don't get my car back soon though, or find some other solution. I might just have to buy some crappy car until I get it back. Ugh, I hate the person that did this.

Better news... my birthday is in 29 days, on Halloween. I'm having my birthday party the night before. And on my actual birthday, Alex and I are just going to sit in and watch horror movies all day. I'm excited.

I will keep everyone updated on my car... hopefully it's found soon. Pray for me everyone.

Depressed

I want to die.