Lovely November

I love the month of November.... for so many reasons. Today was such a long, ordinary, and simple day... but today I felt more happy than I have felt in a long time.

I am praying that I will have some clarity within the next few weeks. My life can take two turns and I'm open to either. Lord, give me strength to do what needs to be done to make my life more whole.


In other news....
ONE MONTH UNTIL THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME OF THE YEAR! <3

Thanksgiving & 60 years

Well... I was so thankful to have almost all of my wonderful family around me this Thanksgiving. I truly feel blessed for everything I have. The threads of my life finally feel like they are weaving themselves together to make a beautiful future and an exciting outlook on the times ahead. Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

And... Happy 60 year anniversary to Dominick & Mary Scanlon (my grandparents). They are two of the most wonderful people on this earth and still very much in love with each other.

My Love

“Love is a temporary madness, it erupts like volcanoes and then subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion, it is not the desire to mate every second minute of the day, it is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every cranny of your body. No, don't blush, I am telling you some truths. That is just being "in love", which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.”

Anniversary

3 years.
Wow.

Silence

"Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart."

Refresh

I wish I could clear my mind. I need to find the refresh button. Sometimes the very thing that you have wanted for so long turns out to be something you're actually quite afraid of.

I just want a sign, is this the direction my life is meant to take?

Talk

If we could just talk more than a casual hello, maybe something would come out of it.
Too bad I'm always so nervous.

Empty Words?

I wonder if he reads my blog. It would be a waste if he didn't.
Almost everything I write is about him....
Without him seeing the words, this blog might as well be empty.

Stubborn

Back at square one again, I think I might just give up. I want to stop caring... it's taking too much energy out of me. I should NOT feel the way I do. When I fall, I fall hard. I am such an intense person.

What is meant to be is meant to be. Hear that Camber? Leave it alone.
Stubbornness usually wins... so this is a wasted effort to try and talk myself into walking away from my emotions. You can't let go of an idea that makes complete sense. You can't let go of unrealistic dreams. And you definitely can't fathom the idea of not having the future that you would die to have. I need him to be my future, more than I have ever needed anything in my life.

Holes

My heart feels like it has holes in it.

November

November is the month that changed everything.
November will always be the month that is associated with you.
November is the most beautiful month of all.

November reminds me of secrets, hidden thoughts, and you.

Time

"From the first heartbeat struck within a vital body, a bell got tolled and the clock started to run. A bargain you weren't even aware of having made was put into play, with destiny holding all the cards. As minutes and hours and days and months and years passed, history was written as you ran out of time until your last heartbeat marked the end of the ride and the time to tally wins and losses."

Entranced

I am so entranced by my current book.<3
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I'll write a long blog this weekend.

Lucky

I am so lucky to have her as my best friend. I thank God everyday that she is in my life.

Twenty One

I am officially 21. I had one of the best birthday's ever. I'll write more about it later. <3