Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
In the Woods
In the Woods, by Tana French is the most fantastic book I have EVER read. She is phenomenal.
I am about to start her second book, The Likeness. Jeez... she is my idol.
Reasons I love her writing:
1. She is Irish.
2. You instantly feel attached to her characters.
3. Her stories take place in Ireland.
4. Her ideas are fresh.
5. Her style is choppy.
6. She uses European lingo. Ex: "Bollocks, fags (cigarettes), bloody, bleeding, shite (my Irish grandparents say this all the time), torch (flashlight)..." I could go on and on about the slang used there.
7.The book's emotions bled into me the whole way through.
Please read it if you haven't already.
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Vegas
"Gonna sell my car and go to Vegas
'Cause somebody told me
That's where dreams would be
Gonna sell my car and go to Vegas
Finally see my name upon the Palace marquis
Gonna quit my job and move to New York
'Cause somebody told me that's where
Dreamers should go
Gonna quit my job and move to New York
And tattoo my body with every Broadway show.
Listen up now honey, you're gonna be sorry
Can't get out from under a sky that is falling
And you say
No fame no money I'm nobody
The way I'm running has sure got me down
On my knees.
But next stop, Vegas please.
Gotta get to Vegas
Can you take me to Vegas?
Gonna sell my house and cross the border
'Cause somebody told me dreams live in Mexico
Gonna sell my house I got to lose ten pounds
And cross the border
And make sweet love upon the white sandy shore.
Listen up now honey, you're gonna be sorry
Can't get out from under a sky that is falling
And you say
No fame no money I'm nobody
The way I'm running has sure got me down
On my knees.
But next stop, Vegas please.
It's always just around the corner or you're
On your way to somewhere
That is bigger or better...
If you could only get there
It's never your fault you can't start your
Own winning streak
But I'd hate to lose you to the fortune you seek
I'm gonna lose my mind and sail the ocean.
'Cause somebody told me there were
Cherry blue skies
I'm gonna fix my mind with a final destination
And have a deep sleep upon a sweet dream
I'll never realize...no
Listen up now honey, you're gonna be sorry
Can't get out from under a sky that is falling
And you say
No fame no money I'm nobody
The way I'm running has sure got me down
On my knees.
Next stop, Vegas please.
Can you take me to Vegas? "
'Cause somebody told me
That's where dreams would be
Gonna sell my car and go to Vegas
Finally see my name upon the Palace marquis
Gonna quit my job and move to New York
'Cause somebody told me that's where
Dreamers should go
Gonna quit my job and move to New York
And tattoo my body with every Broadway show.
Listen up now honey, you're gonna be sorry
Can't get out from under a sky that is falling
And you say
No fame no money I'm nobody
The way I'm running has sure got me down
On my knees.
But next stop, Vegas please.
Gotta get to Vegas
Can you take me to Vegas?
Gonna sell my house and cross the border
'Cause somebody told me dreams live in Mexico
Gonna sell my house I got to lose ten pounds
And cross the border
And make sweet love upon the white sandy shore.
Listen up now honey, you're gonna be sorry
Can't get out from under a sky that is falling
And you say
No fame no money I'm nobody
The way I'm running has sure got me down
On my knees.
But next stop, Vegas please.
It's always just around the corner or you're
On your way to somewhere
That is bigger or better...
If you could only get there
It's never your fault you can't start your
Own winning streak
But I'd hate to lose you to the fortune you seek
I'm gonna lose my mind and sail the ocean.
'Cause somebody told me there were
Cherry blue skies
I'm gonna fix my mind with a final destination
And have a deep sleep upon a sweet dream
I'll never realize...no
Listen up now honey, you're gonna be sorry
Can't get out from under a sky that is falling
And you say
No fame no money I'm nobody
The way I'm running has sure got me down
On my knees.
Next stop, Vegas please.
Can you take me to Vegas? "
Monday, January 24, 2011
Day Eight- A Stranger
Today I saw a homeless man holding a sign that said "Why do I deserve this?" followed by a cross... on the bottom it said "God won't give anyone more than they can handle."
When I tried to give him money, he refused and said that he was just doing the Lords work.
He then asked me if I would pray with him. I did.
I prayed for this stranger, that he would be able to call somewhere home someday. I prayed for his well-being and his health. After we finished praying, he said his work was done for the day. He thanked me and walked away without a glance back.
I'll never forget this stranger.
He taught me that you can't stereotype everyone and also that some people, who may be less fortunate in many ways, have a lot to give and a lot more hope than most of us.
When I tried to give him money, he refused and said that he was just doing the Lords work.
He then asked me if I would pray with him. I did.
I prayed for this stranger, that he would be able to call somewhere home someday. I prayed for his well-being and his health. After we finished praying, he said his work was done for the day. He thanked me and walked away without a glance back.
I'll never forget this stranger.
He taught me that you can't stereotype everyone and also that some people, who may be less fortunate in many ways, have a lot to give and a lot more hope than most of us.
Outlander
"People disappear all the time. Ask any policeman. Better yet, ask a journalist. Disappearances are bread-and-butter to journalists.
Young girls run away from home. Young children stray away from their parents and are never seen again. Housewives reach the end of their tether and take the grocery money and a taxi to the station. International financiers change their names and vanish into the smoke of imported cigars.
Many of the lost will be found, eventually, dead or alive. Disappearances, after all, have explanations.
Usually."
Young girls run away from home. Young children stray away from their parents and are never seen again. Housewives reach the end of their tether and take the grocery money and a taxi to the station. International financiers change their names and vanish into the smoke of imported cigars.
Many of the lost will be found, eventually, dead or alive. Disappearances, after all, have explanations.
Usually."
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Quote
"I use to worry a lot about who I would be when I grew up. How much money I would make or if someday I would become some big deal. Sometimes the thing you most want doesn't happen. Sometimes the thing you never expect often does. You meet thousands of people and none of them really touch you. Then you meet one person and your life is changed forever."
From "Love and Other Drugs"
From "Love and Other Drugs"
Friday, January 21, 2011
The Host
"It's not the face, but the expressions on it. It's not the voice, but what you say. It's not how you look like in that body, but the things you do with it. You are beautiful."
I love you.
I love you.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
99 Things...
ABOUT ME
1. first name: Camber
2. middle name: Elise
3. last name: Scanlon
4. zodiac sign: Scorpio
5. male or female: Female
6. age: 20
7. height: 5'8
8. lucky number: 3
9. eye color: Green/blue
10. hair color: Brown with a lot of blonde highlights.
11. long or short: Long.
12. marital status: Not married!
13. are you a health freak: No, I wish I was.
14. height: Lol... 5'8.
15. do you have a crush on someone: Yes.
16. do you like yourself: Yes.
17. piercings: Ears.
18. tattoos: A small 4 leaf clover on my shoulder.
19. righty or lefty: Right.
20. fav color: Green.
21. least fav color: Orange.
FIRSTS
22. first kiss: Haha, I don't even know.
23. first piercing: Ears.
24. first best friend: Caitlin.
25. first award: I don't know.
26. first sport: Softball... I guess. I was a dancer before that though.
27. first pet: Misha, my cat.
28. first vacation: San Francisco.
29. first car: Nissan Stanza... I hated it.
30. first crush: Haha, I don't know.
CURRENTLY
31. what time is it: 7:25pm
32. where are you: In my room.
33. wish: Won't tell. :)
34. about to: Read.
35. listening to: Nothing.
36. waiting for: Something eventful.
37. wearing: Pajamas.
38. annoyed about: My foots asleep. >:(
39. eating: Nothing.
40. drinking: Water.
FUTURE
41. want kids?: Someday.
42. want to get married?: Someday.
43. careers in mind?: I want to be a writer.
44. dream car?: How about just a car...
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
45. lips or eyes?: Lips.
46. hugs or kisses: Kisses.
47. shorter or taller: Taller.
48. tan skinned or light: I like both.
49. romantic or spontaneous: Both, more spontaneous.
50. dark or light hair: DARK.
51. built, fat, muscular, skinny, or normal: Normal. Shoulder and back muscles are the sexiest.
52. hook up or relationship: Relationship.
53. similar to you or different: Both can work. I usually like dating somebody different than me though.
54. trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant.
HAVE YOU EVER
55. kissed a stranger: No.
56. drank bubbles: No.
57. ate a crayon: No.
58. lost glasses/contacts: Yes.
59. climbed up a tree: Yes.
60. broken someone's heart: Yes.
61. been arrested: No.
62. turned someone down: Yes.
63. cried when someone died: Yes.
64. liked a friend as more than a friend: Yes.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN
65. yourself: Yes.
66. miracles: Yes.
67. ghosts: No, not really.
68. love at first sight: No.
69. santa clause: :)
70. heaven and hell: Yes.
71. kissing on the first date: Sometimes.
72. God: Yes.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
73. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes.
74. Are you happy? Yes.
75. Do you kiss on the first date? It depends.
76. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? No.
77. Last time you flossed? This morning
80. Flirt with your friends boyfriend or girlfriend? NEVER.
81. Cheat on a partner? No.
82. Whats under your bed? Boxes.
83. Last time you cleaned your toilet? My stepmom does that.
84. Ever sprout hairs on your chin? No.
85. Does the carpet match the curtains? LMAO... this survey is cracking me up.
86. Last kiss? I don't know.
87. Last booty call? No booty calls for me, thanks.
88. 7th text received? "I'm notorious for dating guys who are celebrity look alikes. Lol."
89. 4th missed call? Maaike.
90. Last comment received? On facebook? "Lol, of course."
91. Sleep with a stuffed animal? Yep. Haha.
92. Last time you cried? A couple weeks ago.
93. Pee in pools? Never.
94. Ever stolen something? Tic tacs when I was 7... mom caught me... never did it again. Lmao.
95. Ever drink milk from the carton? No. Ew. :(
96. Mad at anyone? No.
97. Ever rock a mullet? No.
98. Last tuxedo worn? I'm a girl. ;)
99. Last video game played: Some stupid game on my phone.
1. first name: Camber
2. middle name: Elise
3. last name: Scanlon
4. zodiac sign: Scorpio
5. male or female: Female
6. age: 20
7. height: 5'8
8. lucky number: 3
9. eye color: Green/blue
10. hair color: Brown with a lot of blonde highlights.
11. long or short: Long.
12. marital status: Not married!
13. are you a health freak: No, I wish I was.
14. height: Lol... 5'8.
15. do you have a crush on someone: Yes.
16. do you like yourself: Yes.
17. piercings: Ears.
18. tattoos: A small 4 leaf clover on my shoulder.
19. righty or lefty: Right.
20. fav color: Green.
21. least fav color: Orange.
FIRSTS
22. first kiss: Haha, I don't even know.
23. first piercing: Ears.
24. first best friend: Caitlin.
25. first award: I don't know.
26. first sport: Softball... I guess. I was a dancer before that though.
27. first pet: Misha, my cat.
28. first vacation: San Francisco.
29. first car: Nissan Stanza... I hated it.
30. first crush: Haha, I don't know.
CURRENTLY
31. what time is it: 7:25pm
32. where are you: In my room.
33. wish: Won't tell. :)
34. about to: Read.
35. listening to: Nothing.
36. waiting for: Something eventful.
37. wearing: Pajamas.
38. annoyed about: My foots asleep. >:(
39. eating: Nothing.
40. drinking: Water.
FUTURE
41. want kids?: Someday.
42. want to get married?: Someday.
43. careers in mind?: I want to be a writer.
44. dream car?: How about just a car...
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
45. lips or eyes?: Lips.
46. hugs or kisses: Kisses.
47. shorter or taller: Taller.
48. tan skinned or light: I like both.
49. romantic or spontaneous: Both, more spontaneous.
50. dark or light hair: DARK.
51. built, fat, muscular, skinny, or normal: Normal. Shoulder and back muscles are the sexiest.
52. hook up or relationship: Relationship.
53. similar to you or different: Both can work. I usually like dating somebody different than me though.
54. trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant.
HAVE YOU EVER
55. kissed a stranger: No.
56. drank bubbles: No.
57. ate a crayon: No.
58. lost glasses/contacts: Yes.
59. climbed up a tree: Yes.
60. broken someone's heart: Yes.
61. been arrested: No.
62. turned someone down: Yes.
63. cried when someone died: Yes.
64. liked a friend as more than a friend: Yes.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN
65. yourself: Yes.
66. miracles: Yes.
67. ghosts: No, not really.
68. love at first sight: No.
69. santa clause: :)
70. heaven and hell: Yes.
71. kissing on the first date: Sometimes.
72. God: Yes.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
73. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes.
74. Are you happy? Yes.
75. Do you kiss on the first date? It depends.
76. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? No.
77. Last time you flossed? This morning
80. Flirt with your friends boyfriend or girlfriend? NEVER.
81. Cheat on a partner? No.
82. Whats under your bed? Boxes.
83. Last time you cleaned your toilet? My stepmom does that.
84. Ever sprout hairs on your chin? No.
85. Does the carpet match the curtains? LMAO... this survey is cracking me up.
86. Last kiss? I don't know.
87. Last booty call? No booty calls for me, thanks.
88. 7th text received? "I'm notorious for dating guys who are celebrity look alikes. Lol."
89. 4th missed call? Maaike.
90. Last comment received? On facebook? "Lol, of course."
91. Sleep with a stuffed animal? Yep. Haha.
92. Last time you cried? A couple weeks ago.
93. Pee in pools? Never.
94. Ever stolen something? Tic tacs when I was 7... mom caught me... never did it again. Lmao.
95. Ever drink milk from the carton? No. Ew. :(
96. Mad at anyone? No.
97. Ever rock a mullet? No.
98. Last tuxedo worn? I'm a girl. ;)
99. Last video game played: Some stupid game on my phone.
Day Seven- My Ex-Boyfriend
I forgot about my blog challenge.
This ones going to be weird.
Well I guess the most significant ex-boyfriend was my high school boyfriend. I'm not going to post his name. Most of the people that read this blog know who I dated in high school. I dated him for four years... from the first week of my freshman year to the week after I graduated. We were never on the same page about our relationship and we went through a lot together. It was nothing compared to what Alex and I have been through though. He was a good boyfriend... he loved me too much. I hurt him a lot in our relationship, I guess I just wasn't happy with him. I cared about him and loved him but I was never in love with him... or maybe I was and lost it.
Time changes people. I saw him about a month ago, I looked at him and almost didn't recognize him. I think he is truly happy though and that is what I want for him. Everyone deserves the right person.
This ones going to be weird.
Well I guess the most significant ex-boyfriend was my high school boyfriend. I'm not going to post his name. Most of the people that read this blog know who I dated in high school. I dated him for four years... from the first week of my freshman year to the week after I graduated. We were never on the same page about our relationship and we went through a lot together. It was nothing compared to what Alex and I have been through though. He was a good boyfriend... he loved me too much. I hurt him a lot in our relationship, I guess I just wasn't happy with him. I cared about him and loved him but I was never in love with him... or maybe I was and lost it.
Time changes people. I saw him about a month ago, I looked at him and almost didn't recognize him. I think he is truly happy though and that is what I want for him. Everyone deserves the right person.
Between the Lines
"These opposite sides on which we fall, the loving you laters if at all. No right minds could wrong, be this many times"
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Madness
I feel like I can't breathe, I can't think. I'm sure you've noticed by now. I feel like I'm screaming at the world...or at least screaming to you. I know it's only my mind yelling the same thing over again. When you're near, everything stops... but my heart leaps.
I feel attached and detached at the same time.
Save me.
"Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart."
Friday, January 14, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
My Blogging Style
What is your blogging personality?
Your Blogging Type is Artistic and Passionate!
You see your blog as the ultimate personal expression - and work hard to make it great.One moment you may be working on a new dramatic design for your blog...
And the next, you're passionately writing about your pet causes.
Your blog is very important - and you're careful about who you share it with.
What kind of Blogger are you?
You Are a Life Blogger!
Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.If it happens, you blog it. And you make it as entertaining as possible.
You may be guilty of over-sharing a bit on your blog, but you can't help it.
Your life is truly an open book. Or in this case, an open blog!
What type of writer should you be?
You Should Be A Poet!
You craft words well, in creative and unexpected ways.And you have a great talent for evoking beautiful imagery...
Or describing the most intense heartbreak ever.
You're already naturally a poet, even if you've never written a poem.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Weak?
People say: "Pain is weakness leaving the body."
What if I don't have anymore weakness to give, does that make me strong? I don't feel strong. I feel weak, but I feel like I've gone through enough pain to know that I can't endure anymore. I don't have anymore to give. Does that mean I'm numb to it?
I don't like knowing that I might be emotionless. I don't like knowing that I may never be loved the way that I want to be loved. I need to face my problems, I just don't know how. I feel ridiculously naive. When you are completely in love and devoted to somebody how can you even begin to fathom that you might not be right together? Maybe I'm not strong at all, maybe I'm a coward. I could handle that. Too afraid to let go, who isn't? I have the one person that I know I'll never be able to live without, he's here... still here. STILL HERE after even the most horrible circumstances that we have faced. I just know that I want change.
What if I don't have anymore weakness to give, does that make me strong? I don't feel strong. I feel weak, but I feel like I've gone through enough pain to know that I can't endure anymore. I don't have anymore to give. Does that mean I'm numb to it?
I don't like knowing that I might be emotionless. I don't like knowing that I may never be loved the way that I want to be loved. I need to face my problems, I just don't know how. I feel ridiculously naive. When you are completely in love and devoted to somebody how can you even begin to fathom that you might not be right together? Maybe I'm not strong at all, maybe I'm a coward. I could handle that. Too afraid to let go, who isn't? I have the one person that I know I'll never be able to live without, he's here... still here. STILL HERE after even the most horrible circumstances that we have faced. I just know that I want change.
Shhh..
"Nothing in the world is permanent, and we're foolish when we ask anything to last, but surely we're still more foolish not to take delight in it while we have it. If change is of the essence of existence one would have thought it only sensible to make it the premise of our philosophy."
Monday, January 10, 2011
Strength
All I post are quotes, I wish I wasn't so tired everyday... I would probably write more.
I have a secret.
I'm tired of lying to myself.
I want to run away from all of my problems.
I wish I could bury myself.
I have a secret.
I'm tired of lying to myself.
I want to run away from all of my problems.
I wish I could bury myself.
Leave me!
"Do not judge men by mere appearances; for the light laughter that bubbles on the lip often mantles over the depths of sadness, and the serious look may be the sober veil that covers a divine peace and joy."
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Writer
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Lost Light
"There is no end of things in the heart. Somebody once told me that. She said it came from a poem she believed in. She understood it to mean that if you took something to heart, really brought it inside those red velvet folds, then it would always be there for you. No matter what happened, it would be there waiting. She said this could mean a person, a place, a dream. A mission. Anything sacred. She told me that it is all connected in those secret folds. Always. It is all part of the same and will always be there, carrying the same beat as your heart. I am fifty-two years old and I believe it. At night when I try to sleep but can't, that is when I know it. It is when all the pathways seem to connect and I see the people I have loved and hated and helped and hurt. I see the hands that reach for me. I hear the beat and see and understand what I must do. I know my mission and I know there is no turning away or turning back. And it is in those moments that I know there is no end of things in the heart."
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