The last time that I went through this day, I was 17 years old and about to graduate from High School. I feel as if that was a lifetime away. I am a completely different person now. For the most part, I think that I am a better person. At 17, I thought I knew exactly what I wanted from life. Life changed. Yet, I am so grateful for where I am and the person that I have grown to be. I am in love with the most wonderful man in the world, well at least my world. He is the light in my life and I wouldn't give up a single moment of our time together for anything.
Well leap year, I'll see you when I'm 25. Let's see where life takes me.
And February, I'll see you next year.
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Distance
There's too much distance between the two of us.
I miss you, it's strange but I do. I became too used to the attention that you used to give me. Maybe it's all in my head, but for a while I felt like something was very real between us.
I miss you, it's strange but I do. I became too used to the attention that you used to give me. Maybe it's all in my head, but for a while I felt like something was very real between us.
Friday, February 17, 2012
Friday, February 10, 2012
I'll take my chances
What am I losing if I lose faith in you?
Maybe I'm just crazy, but I'm not the only one to recognize this ridiculous chemistry. I feel crazy just thinking about it. Life is about taking chances, I'm not living under the heavy weight of "What if?". I don't have time for bull shit.
Maybe I'm just crazy, but I'm not the only one to recognize this ridiculous chemistry. I feel crazy just thinking about it. Life is about taking chances, I'm not living under the heavy weight of "What if?". I don't have time for bull shit.
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Apathetic
I wish the rain would come back. I feel completely at peace when it rains.
I haven't written in a while because I feel as if I have been "going through the motions" lately. Mostly, I've been focused on getting healthy since I was told I have a kidney infection. Other than that, there is nothing note-worthy to write about. I'm disappointed in myself because I haven't worked on my book or poems in over a month and I haven't painted since before summer. Honestly, I've felt somewhat apathetic lately. I wish I had something to look forward to. I'm just venting, for the most part, I know if I took the time to look at my life and digest it, I would find my self content and comfortable. However, there are those moments in my day where I catch a glimpse of the life I truly want. The glimpses like to nag at me constantly. Which is why I am surprised that I have been so apathetic lately. It's most likely because I notice he seems apathetic as well. Just a slight shift between our interactions, but noticeable enough to me.
I'm praying for someone tonight, a person that has been distant. I know something is wrong, but I do not know the reason. I hope that you find reassurance and strength to make it through your current struggle.
I haven't written in a while because I feel as if I have been "going through the motions" lately. Mostly, I've been focused on getting healthy since I was told I have a kidney infection. Other than that, there is nothing note-worthy to write about. I'm disappointed in myself because I haven't worked on my book or poems in over a month and I haven't painted since before summer. Honestly, I've felt somewhat apathetic lately. I wish I had something to look forward to. I'm just venting, for the most part, I know if I took the time to look at my life and digest it, I would find my self content and comfortable. However, there are those moments in my day where I catch a glimpse of the life I truly want. The glimpses like to nag at me constantly. Which is why I am surprised that I have been so apathetic lately. It's most likely because I notice he seems apathetic as well. Just a slight shift between our interactions, but noticeable enough to me.
I'm praying for someone tonight, a person that has been distant. I know something is wrong, but I do not know the reason. I hope that you find reassurance and strength to make it through your current struggle.
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