Writing

“You have to write the book that wants to be written. And if the book will be too difficult for grown-ups, then you write it for children.”
― Madeleine L'Engle

My Strength

"Can any of you by worrying add a single hour to your span of life? If then you are not able to do so small a thing as that, why do you worry about the rest." (Luke 12:25-26)

"Trust in the Lord and do good; so you will live in the land, and enjoy security. Take delight in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act. Be still before the Lord, and wait patiently for him." (Psalm 37:3-5, 7a)

Myths

"All myths contain a grain of truth, Ms. Lane. I've handled books and artifacts that will never find their way into a museum or library, things no archaeologist or historian could ever make sense of. There are many realities pocketed away in the one we call our own. Most go blindly about their lives and never see beyond the ends of their noses. Some of us do."

-Karen Marie Moning

The Road Not Taken

"Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,And that has made all the difference."

-Robert Frost

Dreaming

The feelings that I have are unhealthy and my hopes are unrealistic. At times the emotions are overwhelming. I mostly feel angry at myself for allowing my delusional mind to get extremely carried away.

My dreams are the worst.
When I wake up, I sometimes blur my reality with the dream. It makes waking up and facing my life all the more depressing.

Given the choice between my reality and my dreams, I would choose to live in my dreams... Every Time.

Turning Page

I’ve waited a hundred years
But I’d wait a million more for you
Nothing prepared me for
What the privilege of being yours would do

If I had only felt the warmth within your touch
If I had only seen how you smile when you blush
Or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough
Well I would have known
What I was living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Your love is my turning page
Where only the sweetest words remain
Every kiss is a cursive line
Every touch is a redefining phrase
I surrender who I’ve been for who you are
For nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart
If I had only felt how it feels to be yours
Well I would have known
What I’ve been living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Though we’re tethered, to the story we must tell
When I saw you, well I knew we’d tell it well
With the whisper, we will tame the vicious scenes
Like a feather, bringing kingdoms to their knees

Learning

Love is everything. Find it, and enjoy every minute of it. It fades.

I'm back...

I haven't blogged in two months!!! Okay, well a lot has happened. I have been so busy. Alex and I are getting ready to move into a new place, it's a lot bigger than our current apartment and we're very excited. It's in a much nicer area (Rancho San Diego) as well. On May 19th, at the beach, Alex asked me the question that every girl waits her whole life to be asked. There is a picture below. We are very happy. Just wanted to write something short about what has been going on. I will be writing again soon. There won't be anymore two month absences.

Different

"I am too young to understand that a man and a woman can love each other so deeply that their hearts beat as if they were one heart, and yet, at the same time, know that they are utterly hopelessly different."

-Philippa Gregory

Familiar

"It's natural in times of great perplexity, I think, to seek out the familiar, and the high shelves and long rows of neatly lined-up spines were immensely reassuring. Amid the smell of ink and binding, the dusty motes in beams of strained sunlight, the embrace of warm, tranquil air, I felt that I could breathe more easily."

-Kate Morton
The Distant Hours

Letters

"It started with a letter.... For it is said, you know, that a letter will always seek a reader; that sooner or later, like it or not, words have a way of finding the light, of making their secrets known."

-Kate Morton
The Distant Hours

Beautiful Day

I don't usually love the sun... but today is nice. Lunch under the umbrella at work. I got an iPhone yesterday. Still obsessed with it.

Good Morning

I haven't written lately because I needed a break from sharing my thoughts with the world. So, I bought a journal. I've been writing often and it helps that my words are for my eyes only. I hope it rains this weekend. I live for that kind of weather.

I have some great quotes that I'm going to write out in a little, they're from the current book that I'm reading. It's called The Distant Hours by Kate Morton. Definitely worth the read.

Absence

I haven't written in a while.
It's been a shitty month.


I'll write soon.

Leap Year

The last time that I went through this day, I was 17 years old and about to graduate from High School. I feel as if that was a lifetime away. I am a completely different person now. For the most part, I think that I am a better person. At 17, I thought I knew exactly what I wanted from life. Life changed. Yet, I am so grateful for where I am and the person that I have grown to be. I am in love with the most wonderful man in the world, well at least my world. He is the light in my life and I wouldn't give up a single moment of our time together for anything.

Well leap year, I'll see you when I'm 25. Let's see where life takes me.
And February, I'll see you next year.

Distance

There's too much distance between the two of us.
I miss you, it's strange but I do. I became too used to the attention that you used to give me. Maybe it's all in my head, but for a while I felt like something was very real between us.

Henry

My love bug. <333

Sketch

Rain & love.

I'll take my chances

What am I losing if I lose faith in you?

Maybe I'm just crazy, but I'm not the only one to recognize this ridiculous chemistry. I feel crazy just thinking about it. Life is about taking chances, I'm not living under the heavy weight of "What if?". I don't have time for bull shit.

Tree Tunnel

My favorite place in the world. The tree tunnel in Kauai. True beauty.