Day Six- Favorite Internet Friend

Carly Baker is my favorite internet friend. She writes and says the funniest stuff. I laugh at all of her jokes and love all of the quotes and pictures she puts up. She is inspiring & she cracks me up.

Wine

"Red, red wine... stay close to me. Don't let me be in love. It's tearing me apart. My blue, blue heart."

Preoccupied

My mind has been so busy lately. Sorry for the lack of blogs. I've been under so much stress the last couple of weeks. However, I am happy to say that the majority of my stress has been lifted, thanks to the amazing company that I work for.

Alex is in Mexico for a week. It makes me depressed, but I'll live. We need a break anyway, we haven't been fighting... but we haven't exactly been on the same page lately.

I need Christmas, I want to be with my family. I miss them all so much.

Horoscope

"Speak your mind clearly, Scorpio. Other people aren't mind readers like you are. If you keep waiting for someone to figure out what you're thinking, it will be a long time before the truth comes out. Give people a break and let them know what's going on inside your head. Communication is important, and today it begins with you. Feel free to take the first step toward opening the door."

Good thing people aren't in my mind.
Today it kept shouting one word over and over.

Wishes

"In these bodies we will live, in these bodies we will die. Where you invest your love, you invest your life."

Gone

"It's amazing that after all we've been through, we can walk by each other, give each other an awkward smile and pretend we never knew each other."

You

"In my wildest dreams, you always play the hero. In my darkest hour of night, you save my life."

"Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart."

N.P.

"I, being, poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams."

Day Five- My Dreams

Is this referring to the dreams I dream at night or my hopes for the future?

I'm going to assume my hopes and plans for the future. I don't really want to describe what I dream when I sleep anymore. You can see my past dreams on this blog. secretsofthedreamer.blogspot.com

My hopes and dreams are big. Most importantly, I want to be a fantastic writer. I've always loved writing and reading. The first step is getting my Bachelor's degree in English. I want to write beautiful books.
My dreams also include... getting married and having a beautiful family. I just want to be happy.
Writer. Wife. Children. Happiness. --My dreams laid out for you--

Hmph

Rearranged by room and found a surprise in my bed. :D

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Sisters- Laura Nadine Scanlon

Laura- When Laura was born, all I could think about was how beautiful she was. That's all I talked about from the moment I saw her and held her. She was like a little baby doll. I was spending time with my family that day while my dad and Linda were in the hospital and my cousin Daniel couldn't stand to be near me.... because I couldn't stop talking about Laura. I feel like Laura is my mini me in so many ways. When I was her age, we could pass for twins, her hair is a little lighter and her eyes are more blue while mine are more green. I adore Laura.

Sisters- Keleigh "Skye" Robinson

Skye- I remember when I was growing up, the thing I wanted the most was to have a little sister. Not a brother, I never wanted a brother. So when one day my mom announced she was having a baby, I was ecstatic. I was only six at the time. When Skye came into the world I adored her, I was practically her second mom. I was very protective over her and would hardly let anyone else hold her. When she was born, I remember I was the first to hold her... even before my mom. My mom knew just how important Skye was to me and had the doctor give her to me first (I was in the room when she was born). Skye is my most difficult sister. She puts me through literal hell and we fight constantly, but she holds the most special place in my heart. I intend to show her that for the rest of my life.

Sisters- Alexandria Kay Taylor

Alex- I met Alex when I was seven years old. I met her when my dad started dating Linda (my stepmother) I extremely disliked her when I first met her. She was only three at the time. But I couldn't understand why she cried so much. We're not the closest, actually we're like polar opposites when it comes to personalities. But she means a lot to me. She is not just my stepsister. She is my sister. I will always be there for her if she needs me and I will always do what I feel is in her best interest at heart. I hope she always knows that and understands that. It's not easy to be the oldest... if you read this Alex, I hope you consider that and learn to apologize and also to forgive.

Day Four- Sisters

I have three beautiful sisters.

Alexandria Kay Taylor - April 10, 1995
Keleigh "Skye" Robinson- April 22, 1997
Laura Nadine Scanlon- December 18, 2000

My parents split up before I was three. I technically have two half sisters and one step sister, but I consider them all my sisters.
I am going to post a specific post for each of them.

Change

Little change of scenery... I rearranged my room. Ahhh... it feels nice. Cleaned everything and organized it. Alex is currently working on homework... what's new? I feel so proud of him. He graduates with his Bachelors in Business Administration in May. He's been working so hard and he almost has a 4.0 to show for it. He's going to be extra busy this weekend, his finals are coming up.

Tomorrow I'm going to a Christmas party. I love Holiday parties and I'm so excited. I get to dress up too.

Found out that my cousin Angela is expecting her second child to be a boy again. Our family is very happy and feels very blessed. Her youngest son Devin must be so excited. He is the sweetest little boy in the world and I know he'll be a great big brother.

That's it for now everyone... my other blog is keeping me super busy lately. It seems to get more attention than this one now.

Stalkers :)

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Painter

I decided I wanted to look like a painter today and just realized it 5 minutes ago.
Laughing my ass off.

December

Hello lovely December... nice to see you!
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Love Her

Favorite.

Day Three- Parents

This one is hard for me. To be honest, I consider my stepmother my mom. She is the only one who has every played a maternal role in my life, other than my grandmothers.

I love my true mother so much, but she breaks my heart every time I see her. My mom has problems. For the longest time, I didn't want to believe what everyone around me told me. As I grew up, I learned the truth on my own. My little sister will begin to notice soon enough. One of the most important things she has taught me is not to become what she has become. It just hurts me sometimes to know that I didn't have an normal, loving mother. Or for that matter, a normal childhood, like most children have. I've learn to let go because of her. Only she can make the change, and even though the time has passed for her to make it for my sake... she still has time to do it for my little sister.

I used to adore my father. I couldn't wait to spend my weekends with him. But as I got older, we drifted apart. I assume it's because I am his first child and he didn't know how to deal with a rebellious teenage daughter. Whatever the reason, our relationship now is stiff. He is worried about me, always so worried. But it's the little things that he does that shows me he cares. His own little things. I know my dad loves me. He has cared about me my whole life. I just hope that someday I can make him proud.

My stepmom and I have a rocky relationship. But I think that's the way mother/daughter relationships are... I can't be sure though considering that until I met her.. I never knew. She makes me feel loved and safe. Whenever I need a hug or need to cry or need to vent, I go to her.

So there... I know it's not the most inspirational or most uplifting story about parents. But I spoke the truth, at least the truth that is in my heart.