Love, Hopes, and Dreams...

If only happily ever after came in a bottle...

Costume

I lied... I'm not making my Halloween costume, I decided to buy it. Haha.
Vampire. I'm old-school.
It's different... it lights up. :) Bar-hopping in PB & Downtown the whole night.... I love that my birthday is on Halloween.

Shattered Pieces

It rained so much today and I am so happy. It was such a perfect day out.

I am so much more content with my life lately. I am finding happiness in the simplest things. I don't feel numb anymore, and it's so relieving. I am so blessed to live the life that I live and I thank God for it everyday. I have had so many struggles the past few years, but I finally feel like I am going to be able to get a grip on everything bad that has happened and let it go. I have to come to terms with my past and realize that I can't control everything and also come to terms with the fact that I can not help somebody who is not willing to be helped. What I can do, however, is cause awareness and prevent it from happening to somebody else. I don't ever want anybody to go through the struggles that I go through everyday. I don't want anybody to carry such a heavy burden and not be able to help somebody they love. My heart is heavy, but there is only so much I can do until I have to look around at the shattered pieces, pick them all up, and put them together again. That is what I am doing, I am putting myself together again.

October

Oh, my beautiful October is here...
Saw rain and felt cold for the first time in months. Lol. <333

Yellow

She is my favorite person on the planet.

Obsessed

Ergh

Okay. I desperately need a laptop. I have too much to do and I can't do it all from home. I'm going to go crazy.

Ready, set, AUTUMN!!!

Can you tell Fall is my second favorite season? <3
I am one step closer to my favorite... winter!
<3333333333

Autumn 3

Autumn 2

Autumn 1

Falling

Falling in love or falling out of love, that is the question...

The answer will change everything.

Happy

I feel so blessed lately. My life is coming together.
I feel like I can take the whole world on today.

Happiness is, letting go.<3

Relief

For the first time in a long time, I feel like I might actually get some peace soon. I had a very eventful and awakening day. I have been lost for so long now. I have hope that my life is going to change, and somewhere within this change I will be able accept my life. There is one person especially that has shaped me to have so many emotional problems and resentment towards others, my Mother. I am learning to forgive her and I am also learning to detach myself from all of her issues. I need her emotional weight lifted, I need to let go.

Here is the perfect combination to get through any bump in the road:
-Goals
-Strength
-Prayer
-Faith
-Perseverance
-Determination
-Support
-Clarity

I'm on my way.

Look After You

If I don't say this now I will surely break

As I'm leaving the one I want to take

Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait

My heart has started to separate


Oh, oh,

Be my baby

Ohhhhh

Oh, oh

Be my baby

I'll look after you


There now, steady love, so few come and don't go

Will you won't you, be the one I'll always know

When I'm losing my control, the city spins around

You're the only one who knows, you slow it down


Oh, oh

Be my baby

Ohhhhhh

Oh, oh

Be my Baby

I'll look after you

And I'll look after you


If ever there was a doubt

My love she leans into me

This most assuredly counts

She says most assuredly


Oh, oh

Be my baby

I'll look after you

After You

Oh, oh

Be my baby

Ohhhhh

It's always have and never hold

You've begun to feel like home

What's mine is yours to leave or take

What's mine is yours to make your own


Oh, oh

Be my baby

Ohhhhh

Oh, oh


Be my baby

I'll look after you


You are so beautiful to me.

Chargers- Game 2

UMMMM, HELLO CHARGERS.... GET IT TOGETHER. Jazmine and I had to leave the room in the last quarter because we were disgusted. Haha.

The Saints and Bears game was great to watch. Jeez, I wish we still had Brees & Sproles. I am about to lose hope in the Chargers.

"For You"

If you're lost and feeling low,

Circumnavigate the globe,

All you have is hope.



And the way you seem to flow

Circumnavigate the globe,

I never seem to lose control,

With you.



Everyone of us is high,

Everyone of us is low,

Everyone of us is here,

How about you?

Your eyes are closed,

Your head held low,

Your eyes are closed.



Everyone of us is high,

Everyone of us is low,

Everyone of us has hope,

For you.

News

I feel much better today, still a little tired though.
I can't wait for the weekend, it's going to be a great one. My whole family is getting together on Saturday and I am so excited.
I had a dream, last night, that I finished my book and it was on the New York Times bestseller list for a year. Go ahead, tell me to keep dreaming. I'll get there someday. :)

The Never-Ending Cold

My cold is back... yes, the same cold I had two months ago. I feel a little better than I did earlier. I have aches all over, a migraine, and my throat hurts. I'm praying that it at least lets up by tomorrow.

Ugh.

Happy Birthday

Alex!!!