If I Fell

"If I fell in love with you, would you promise to be true? And help me understand... 'cause I've been in love before... and I thought that love was more than just holding hands."

Pray

"The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray. Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins." Peter 4:7

Stupid

I feel like an idiot.
Broke my finger today... at work. Embarrassing.
My middle finger... right next to my left ring finger that was broken years ago and still remains crooked. My hands are going to look terrible.

I have this ugly bruise under my middle finger.... and right now (while I'm typing this) I realized that it's going to be hard to type tomorrow with my obnoxious finger brace.

Sigh... this is my life I guess.
Lmao.

Better

Much better.

Fair

The San Diego County Fair is here...
It is almost my favorite thing in the world! Going this weekend.
:)

Beautiful

"Jane, be still; don't struggle so like a wild, frantic bird, that is rending its own plumage in its desperation."

"I am no bird; and no net ensnares me; I am a free human being, with an independent will; which I now exert to leave you."

-Charlotte Bronte

Last Bronte quote for a while... putting the depression back on the shelves... where it belongs.

Wise Words

"You are, like, way too sad... Put Bronte down for a while and, instead, try some Nicholas Sparks. At the end, even though you're crying, you won't feel so resigned to fate, but, rather, able to pull up your bootstraps and surge into the future - feeling able to handle whatever is waiting for you..."

Thank you Elizabeth!

My Happiness

Alex, Jazmine, and Sidd give me all of my happiness.

They're all I need to keep going.

...and of course, my dreams... my crazy, happy, wonderful dreams.

Decisions

I feel like I have three choices I could make with my life right now.

Two are completely available and open to me.

And, of course, one of them I would have to put myself out there with.

Obviously I want what I can't have or something that is at least harder to get.

If only people knew what I really wanted... if only he knew.

Padres Game

Went to the Padres game with my co-workers tonight. Brought Jazmine as my guest, my work gave everybody two tickets. I had a great time. I hadn't been downtown in so long. I really need to start getting out more. Jazmine was such a great friend tonight... I'm so lucky to have her as a best friend. The Padres lost the game, but it was still nice to be around co-workers outside of work. :)

Instrument of Evil

"Gentle reader, may you never feel what I then felt! May your eyes never shed such stormy, scalding, heart-wrung tears as poured from mine. May you never appeal to Heaven in prayers so hopeless and so agised as in that hour left my lips: for never may you, like me, dread to be the instrument of evil to what you wholly love."
-Charlotte Bronte

Hurt

Foolish.
Pain.
Stupidity.
Love.
Anger.

I'm learning.
I want to let go.